The Most Confused Thing That I Am Now Confronted With ( Free Writing )

      Now I am a freshman in SooChow University,but actually I should have been a sophomore in TamKang University this year. Last year, I suspended from TamKung University, for I could not adapt myself to the major that I chose before. I used to major in National Business. However, its subjects were full of mathematic such as accounting, economic, statistic and calculus, which I were definitely not good at. I was not interested in what I was studying at that time. I had temporarily lost my enthusiasm for studying. I thought I was just idling away my time, so I quit without a second thought. I stayed in TamKang only for three weeks, someone may thought I made this decision so impulsively, but to me, I thought I just did the right thing. I would rather left than still stayed there and lived my life without goal.
      After a year since I suspended, I came here this September and ready to start my "second" freshman's life. I successfully applied to my favorite English department, which I failed to apply before. However, after studying few months, I am now facing a confusion and really feel puzzled. I like to speaking English rather than to read lots of literature, which makes me feel so tedious. I suspect myself again and again. Why do I want to choose this department that is not as popular as before. Does anything I learn now benefits my jobs in the future? How should I do next? I have definitely no idea.